JAI !!OM SREE BHAGHAWATI VEKKALI 

Personal Life.                                                   

Parents

There is no bigger temple than Mother, there is no mantras beyond father’s words, there might be thousand words in the origin but the destiny for love and affection are the parents. Do you know who make you Stand on your feet, Protect you, rejoice from happiness with that you get with love and affection and be part of it as a partner in all the doings as desired as a servant? It’s no one else none other than Sakshath Parashakti and Paremeshwaran is what I have realized in the last 6 years of endowment, bringing me into limelight from the stage of being a normal human being to be created and called with a great adorance as Swamiji by  shiva shakti to dissolve me in the vacuum of Tat-Sit which is the MOOLA MANTRA is my MOOLA NAMASKARA  for this life from the womb to the existence of myself to be called as “ Satyanathan” by my father named Late: Pashupathi Iyer  and mother Namagiri Ammal , all my heartily gratitude to each one of them understanding myself and being a mentor by being part of all my good times and bad times was none other than my Father-in-Law his highness Nataraja Iyer & her holiness Pattammal who are such big hearted who cannot be forgotten any given day for their guidance that they have given me by themselves and also supporting me even today through their offspring,my life partner, making me glide through the waves of family hood successfully without being a rough tide to all the duties to the deity which I am accountable for.

Guru

 As my dear mother had kept my name as Satya Nathan, which was one of the motivation for me to accept him as my Guru. I am all the more bestowed to accept the same and to preach his sayings all the more, the vision of his sight being right in front of my eyes is always factual to the last drop of the ocean.

To get the right guidance and the path to grow as an complete individual, unearthing all the qualities, traits, unleashing it to the real world - one has to have a Mentor (GURU), I was asked, “are you crying” at the first contact of my GURU, when told the reason he said, “ IS THIS ALL” , a thought aroused in me when I am at the last stage, he just asked me “WILL YOU VISIT ME ONCE IN A WEEK”, it was almost two years’ my visits continued, all that I saw was ignorance when the doors where knocked. One fine day I was asked “ why are you behind me? ” I then expressed my grievances again. He said “ all that you told me was that you are in your LAST PHASE” I didn't understand what he said, he again said, “come back tomorrow”, I lost my patience, with lot of burden I was returning back through a path of dense trees, all that I visualized was a gigantic individual with long hairs, dressed in tiger skin attire*, glowing bright face with a sarcastic smile, Guess who!! All that I thought was it was my Guru who came in the verse of lord Shiva, One who turned the tables across, changed the lives of many individuals, made an illiterate a literate, I was in shock to realize what am I seeing. 

I visited my Guru’s ashram the next day, he called me and asked me “ You saw me yesterday isn’t it?”  This one Question of his answered all my questions that I had, all that I understood was, it was the test of patience for all these two years. 

I understood that I was taken as a disciple by Dakshinamurthy, who has been a mentor to many. I realized myself resulting in almost clarity in my vision of thoughts. I realized that Mentorship is not for ATMA but only for LIFE, with the blessing of the goddess you will be a person who will help the poor and needy was the blessing I received, with my ATMA SHAKTI you will flourish more than me was the advice with his blessings always given to me, empowering me to be called as “Swamiji” and blessed with the name “ Sathya  Sai Nathan”

 Deivam –(The GOD) 

With the UPADESHAM of my Guru, a question aroused in me “which God should I pray?” My Guru was a disciple and a great devotee of Goddess RajaRajeshwari,  Should I follow the same? Was the next question that arised, then I realized and remembered what my GURU stated, “ Thirumbavum Yennai Nee Parkum Badi Aval Vaithu Kolla Maatal, Aval Mudiveditthuvittal Avaley Vazhium Katuval” was the firm saying that I remembered. 

It means, “ She will not create a situation for you to re-visit me, if she has decided she will be your Mentor”

 I also got engrossed in knowing what Bible is all about from my dear friend who was all the more indulged in Christianity. I realized that I was been asked to follow Christianity for a certain period to attain fellowship; I used to attend mass and all prayer sessions without considering the fact whether it was day or night, this process opened my heart leading to SELF-REALIZATION.

It was then when one of my dear friend who sent me a copy of QURAN, I actually was in a fix with question arising “ Am I a Hindu, Muslim or Christian”, I drowned in the verses of Quran to the extent to forget myself, All the more I read Bhagavad-Gita, QURAN & Bible it burnt me alive to the extent – I had enlightenment of the super power waking my ATMA,  In the focused path of Duties which is Bhagavad-Gita, In the focused path of enlightenment of ATMA in Bible , in the focused path of knowing how to lead the life was through Quran,  This whole process of enlightment made my ATMA awaken from my inner self.

 I again got back to my normal family life like a small boat in the ocean, going around in circles, a fear arised in me “ will I be the same without achieving anything in the my life”, I also felt bad that why couldn’t I do any SADHANAI, why is that I could not do anything to the poor and needy was the question that chased me all around to the extent I got depressed.

 That day was Wednesday morning when my daughter gave me the picture of the Goddess stating, “ Why don’t you keep this and start the pooja”, I was in shocked to the extent that tears flowed thinking “oh goddess my creator, my mentor, one who enlighten me to know what Bhagavad-Gita, Bible, QURAN, the goddess who saved me from Yama, the goddess who made me stand in front of the society  with all the PRIDE and PREJUICE, I have no ending to stop the praises that I have for the goddess.  

 The goddess who has won TIME is KALIKA, my mother – I kept her photo, did the pooja and the tears didn’t stop flowing. The Goddess Says’ Shankara forget the SANKATA, walk in the path of truth, all these days’ I tested your patience only to test whether you’re the right individual for me and whether you can sacrifice everything for me, only post that you have been taken as the chosen one.

 You were already the chosen one when you had stepped into my temple on your wedding day, One who gives the work and the one who guides you through is none other than VEKKALI, I was Shocked to hear that from her.

To attain her blessing with a purpose on mind is not the desire, but the only essence is that to attain success of what is desired with her blessings.

 All through my life for me who has been an Atheist, it was the goddess who considered me and helped me through succeed in life till date, How Sympathetic? Karunamayie.

 It’s all love, and tenderness – she is the perfect idealistic for what said, her love and affection could never be forgotten for the motherly affection and the blissful support that she has given me, all my gratitude to her blessings, with all the blessing of Sri VEKKALI Amman I whole and solely promise you today.

 …….. Breathing today!! Tomorrow????????……………..

 Yours truly, 

Sri Satya Sai Nathan.